Life As a Young Lesbian Girl - Kaylee's Lesbian Awakening

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Kaylee's Lesbian Awakening...

From first-hand experience, I can tell you that being a lesbian is definitely not a choice. It is something you feel inside. I have recognized these feelings since I was a little girl. I first realized that I liked girls when I was seven years old in the third grade. I did not adopt these feelings from anyone else, by viewing racy pictures, or from watching TV.

I first became aware of my feelings when my best friend, Alison, slept over at my house. She, too, was in 3rd grade, and our families had been very close for over three years. Together Alison and I liked to tease and chase boys (I thought I liked a few boys in my class, but that did not last much past my ninth year of life).

Alison was staying with us because her parents had been involved in a terrible car accident. I remember that weekend was very emotional for all of us. I was scared

because no one knew if her parents would be all right. Ali and I cried together a lot, but there were moments that night that we did feel better.

That Friday night we watched Boy Meets World, a TV comedy, and some music videos several times, including “Barbie Girl.” After that, Alison and I decided to play dress-up. We tried on our cutest clothes. I let Ali try on my tops, skirts, and knee-high socks. I was in love with Ali's new flared jeans, so I wore those, along with her babydoll top. Ali most enjoyed wearing my pleated skort (one-piece skirt/shorts combination) with my cute pink peasant top.

We then put on makeup – lipstick, lip gloss, eye shadow, and eyeliner. We had so much fun applying nail polish to our fingernails and toenails. Oh, and our hair! With our crimped hair, we were a cross between Scary Spice and Ginger Spice from the Spice Girls!

We spent over an hour and a half in the bathroom together acting like crazy little girls and forgetting all the sad stuff in our lives for just a moment. This is my first memory of something I had never felt before toward another girl (at least consciously). As I watched Ali standing there giggling hard, all dressed up in my clothes with a really (and I mean really!) overdone makeup job, I saw her differently in that moment. She looked so appealing. I didn't think much of it then, I just knew I really liked those feelings. I loved how Alison's lips looked with my lip gloss. She also looked so pretty wearing some of my glitter. The best part was touching Ali's hair as doing so made me feel all tingly inside. Before long, however, it was time to go to bed.

The next morning, I was disappointed to find that Alison had gotten up before me. She was on the phone with her aunt, and Alison ended up going to her aunt's that afternoon to stay for the remainder of the weekend. Oh, what disappointment! But I understood the need for her family to be together. Luckily, Ali's parents recovered from their injuries in the weeks that followed.

That memorable Friday night marked the point at which everything changed for me. Looking back, I realized how great of a crush on Alison I had, as my young lesbian life had just begun.

Ali and I have remained close friends throughout the years, despite the fact that she and her family moved out of state before we began junior high. Since that time, I've made many new friends and have experienced true lesbian romance. Learn more about my life as a lesbian here.

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